I can never feel connected?

I want to be in love but I don't know a lot of people from the same cultural religious background as me. I wanted to feel what its like being in love but he ended up showing his true colors he was a player and had a kid with someone who was already married to someone else and now I lost hope. Its been a while since that incident but I wish I could find someone honest true and real? I don't think my parents even want me to get into a relationship they don't want me to hav a bf and no guy has ever even texted me so much except tht player. I feel so low on self esteem.